To those who are outside looking in (Mother’s Day)

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This is for you.

You who have longed for days, weeks, years, a lifetime to feel the kick of life within but find yourself empty still

You who have outwardly smiled and laughed celebrating their joy while inside your pain was with knife-like precision stabbing your heart

You who have endured the questions, the suggestions and the comments from those who will never understand the depth of this emptiness

You who find yourself “less than” in a world where we can have everything

You who look “fine” on the outside but find yourself broken and bruised on the inside

You who long for this one day to quickly pass for it is not yours and may never be

This is for you who want to hide away avoiding the awkward moment where it is easier to smile empty than explain “I am not”

This is for you because I know

Because it is also for me….

Oh sweet friend, may we find the comfort in the only One who understands our broken places.

May we hold tight believing in His greater purpose even when we know it has never be our plan.

May we give up this invisible burden and hang on to His amazing grace.

May we dare to trust Him in the pain and yearn with hope to the future.

May we find comfort in knowing that every tear we cry is seen by

His loving eyes and captured by His loving heart.

 
On this day when we find ourselves left out…
 

May we find the strength within to move beyond this empty dream

and whisper thanks for what we do have.

 

Uncontainable, immeasurable grace

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Falling Rain

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Gratitude and humility are overwhelming me. Pouring down upon me like the incessant rain falling outside my window.  I know long before this earth existed I was on God’s mind. I was and now remain an object of His focus. In Him and through Him, all the broken pieces of my life have been made whole and holy.

I bow my head in humility for I know I deserve none of it. While He has never taken His focus from me, my eyes have not held the same gaze.

Yet, still, grace and mercy flow…

I know I have been placed here and now, much like Esther, for such a time as this. I have been given opportunities to live the life of faith I profess. In Him and through Him I am equipped for the task. He supplies all my needs and all my strength to accomplish what He has set before me.

I fall to my knees in humility knowing I deserve none of this. For while He has the task prepared, I have chosen my own endeavors.

Yet, still, grace and mercy flow…

I know I have been loved completely and sacrificially. Loved to such a depth I cannot fathom where the beginning differs from the ending.

I fall on my face in humility knowing I deserve none of this. While He loves me beyond my comprehension, I fail to love beyond my own irritation.

Yet, still, grace and mercy flow…

As the raindrop falls freely from the sky, so does this grace and mercy fall from Heaven.

I cannot control it.

And, I don’t want to stop it.

Without it my life would be unbearable,

but with each drop that falls I am filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

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